grief

Alexandra Stacey announces
the launch of
DragonflyYOU.

The death of a spouse wipes out not only the life of the person who died, but also that of the spouse left behind. Marriage and like-married relationships, when done right, take two lives and entwine them together in ways both obvious and imperceptible.

Until death do us part.

But no one stops to think about what happens after we invoke the shittiest clause in the contract!!!

There is a time immediately following a widow’s loss where the pain is all-consuming. Despair, fear, and a weakness that encompasses the mind, body, and spirit take over and the darkness descends.

The ‘five stages of grief’ were never meant to describe the journey of the widow. They are a blanket explanation of the path of the dying.

A widow’s journey is something completely different.

Our timeline is a varied as we are. The stages are a hit-and-miss jumble of chaos. The healing isn’t the healing we expect it to be.

But in the end, the grief never goes away. It never lessens. We don’t ever ‘get over it.’

The grief becomes a part of us.

At some point, we start to learn to live with it.

And that’s where DragonflyYOU steps in.

When a widow begins to wonder, ‘Now what?‘

When she begins to think, ‘There has to be more than this.‘

When she reaches the point where she wants more than the day to day wallow in the pit of self-pity.

DragonflyYOU is the next step.

Focusing on rebirth, change, transformation, and self-realization, the dragonfly as a symbol is the signal to move forward and learn to create an incredible new self, with hope, strength, and purpose.

To build a whole new existence that brings back the joy of living a life that we choose, that we create, that we enjoy.

When you’re ready.

Or if you know someone you think is ready.

DragonflyYOU.com

Helping women turn grief into a fabulous Second Act.

I had a video post all ready to go for yesterday morning, but I changed my mind and cancelled it.

After missing my January 31st deadline to finish the draft, I’ve been going full speed trying to catch up. There comes a point for me in the writing of a novel where the story takes on a life of its own; and that’s pretty exciting. But then there’s the point where it snowballs into something huge bearing down on me, and no matter how much time I devote to it, I simply cannot type fast enough.

I hit that point two Fridays ago.

The only response to this full on creative assault is to put life – and I mean everything in my life – on stand-by and let the book come to its finish. In the ten days before yesterday’s video release, I put down more than 37,000 words. In writing terms, a good day is somewhere in the realm of 2,000 words per day, and holding that rate for ten days straight is outrageous.

But the story was telling itself and I did my best to keep up. To heck with the laundry and the banking and the cooking and cleaning and, though not all, I’ll admit to most of, the showering….

Sunday was the day. It was a spectacular 5,000 word sprint to the finish. I hit save, sent the file to printer, tortured to have missed the deadline for same-day printing by an hour. I’d have to wait til the next day to hold the first copy of my manuscript in my hands. I decided to go celebrate with the family with the intention of coming back to shoot a new, and very exciting video to post for the next day.

Henry Brown, 2010-2019

That’s when I found Henry.

He was lying on the floor right outside my office door where he always does when I won’t let him in. Excited to see me, wiggling all happy. And completely and totally unable to get up.

Two hours later, I was sitting on the floor with him in the emergency vet clinic hearing the words no dog lover wants to hear. And an hour after that, I said my last goodbye.

Henry had been mine since he was ten weeks old. He just turned 9. But over the last six years since my husband’s passing, he has been on guard for me so that I can sleep, so that I can feel safe, so that I can come home and know that everything’s alright. He has been my shoulder to cry on, the ear to bend, and my greatest cheerleader since I was left alone. And without him, I know I would never have made it to now with my sanity intact.

There is a huge part of me that wants to throw the book in the trash and walk away. Was I so focussed on it that I missed all the signs? Were there signs?

But the more rational side of me is itching to get into my first real read-through of the entire story.

I wrote this book as an exploration of the processing of grief. It’s the story of one woman’s journey from absolute despair to pure joy. And I wrote it to help people who, like me, were struggling with the healing, the guilt, the regrets, and the pain of loss.

The fact that I will actually be my own first test subject is an irony that is beyond my current ability to understand, let alone describe. Suffice it to say that, right in the middle of one of my greatest tragedies – and if you’re not a dog person, I’ll just ask for your indulgence here – has come one of my greatest achievements. And I can’t put that all together just yet.